https://ineedmusic.cargo.site I Need Music: A Coda Fri, 03 Sep 2021 22:11:36 +0000 https://ineedmusic.cargo.site en https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-1-Wow-where-has-his-crotch-gone Tue, 22 Jun 2021 20:17:27 +0000 I Need Music: A Coda https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-1-Wow-where-has-his-crotch-gone Section 1: [Wow, where has his crotch gone?] [Wow, where has his crotch gone?] Acknowledgements Hana Noorali Marcella Torres Troy Michiegolden Anu AmbasnaBenjamin Krusling Anika Sabin Brandon Drew Holmes Robert Mapplethorpe Kandis Williams Phaedra Charles Kiyan Williams Bluets, Maggie Nelson Kalen Na’il Roach The Mother Mary Hana Noorali In this black and white photograph, we can see a mixed heritage woman and a man standing to the left of the frame. Neither one is smiling but they seem somewhat at ease. They are visible from the knees up and while we can see them face on, they are slightly turned towards each other. The woman is wearing a white dress that has a v neckline, is short- sleeved and cinched at the waist. It has a repeating circular pattern printed on it. She has dark shoulder-length curly hair and she is wearing a silver bracelet on her right forearm. The man is wearing a light coloured wide-legged suit, white shirt and a tie. There is a pen inside the top pocket of his suit jacket that is buttoned up. He has short dark slicked backed hair and he is wearing a silver ring on the fourth finger of his left hand. Behind the couple, there are two low, one storey buildings. Between them, a long and lonely bamboo pole extends beyond the top edge of the image. Both buildings have corrugated metal roofs. There is a door on the building directly behind the couple that has a two paned window above it. It also has a tall step that extends up from the ground to the bottom of the door and runs the length of the building. The woman and man’s figures cast wobbly shadows over the step. Shadows of trees are also visible on the façade of the building. The top third of the image is taken up with the sky, a block of flat beige colour. This is a description of a photograph of my grandparents on my father’s side which was taken in Maputo, Mozambique in 1938. The man was born in Maputo, the woman was born in South Africa. They both lived in Maputo after their arranged marriage. I have never met my grandparents. I’ve never heard their voices, I do not know if they knew about me, and I do not know their first names. Their surname was ‘Noor Ali’ which my father merged into one word when he moved to the UK in the 1970s as he was worried about how ‘Ali’ might be perceived. This image is the only way I can speak of my father because we don’t talk. I’ve been told my father wrote poetry, but I’ve never heard it. I have held a mental image of my grandparents for years but until a few months ago I had never seen their photograph. This image represents a history I am only able to explore through my flat computer screen. It won’t ever be able to answer the questions I have for my grandparents but reading and looking at this photograph I feel I know them. Family has an intangible pull, a relationship that doesn’t need to be quantified to make it legitimate. <img width="808" height="1080" width_o="808" height_o="1080" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/8166d85df7a4c19c5d4fbfd76e18536b8b09331160a4846bf56d5ac0d8d18ba5/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-10.55.25-AM.png" data-mid="118045350" border="0" data-scale="100" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/808/i/8166d85df7a4c19c5d4fbfd76e18536b8b09331160a4846bf56d5ac0d8d18ba5/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-10.55.25-AM.png" />Maputo, Mozambique, 1938. Image courtesy Hana Noorali Marcela Torres <img width="810" height="1078" width_o="810" height_o="1078" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/d90ce23b3adc048da8371746e28cf8f27c35d09d2f733c902e891db0cfb1b784/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-10.59.34-AM.png" data-mid="118045456" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/810/i/d90ce23b3adc048da8371746e28cf8f27c35d09d2f733c902e891db0cfb1b784/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-10.59.34-AM.png" /> <img width="864" height="1148" width_o="864" height_o="1148" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/e0c327d8e1a5fa8d8b31f780a48b82558d7ff23462ab86f61cfd86a90dcec305/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-10.59.49-AM.png" data-mid="118045457" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/864/i/e0c327d8e1a5fa8d8b31f780a48b82558d7ff23462ab86f61cfd86a90dcec305/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-10.59.49-AM.png" /> <img width="832" height="1110" width_o="832" height_o="1110" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/7f735e70ce164b9141d09750aaa36d1a5eefb1e29e662c7635b9befa3b8bc193/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-11.00.12-AM.png" data-mid="118045458" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/832/i/7f735e70ce164b9141d09750aaa36d1a5eefb1e29e662c7635b9befa3b8bc193/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-11.00.12-AM.png" /> Golden <img width="1246" height="996" width_o="1246" height_o="996" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/c9c563d4693b6fcb7637097a2e3fc1f59ea6ed8752ea9ee6809de8e2709eddac/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-11.02.48-AM.png" data-mid="118045347" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/c9c563d4693b6fcb7637097a2e3fc1f59ea6ed8752ea9ee6809de8e2709eddac/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-11.02.48-AM.png" />He claims to know me better than my shadow does, 2020, Jamaica Plain, MA <img width="1226" height="876" width_o="1226" height_o="876" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/06336d7bb90183af08e440ef26d6930dca48f7d68bbc82cc7ba9d61727e8bb34/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-11.04.08-AM.png" data-mid="118045346" border="0" data-scale="100" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/06336d7bb90183af08e440ef26d6930dca48f7d68bbc82cc7ba9d61727e8bb34/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-11.04.08-AM.png" /> Anu Ambasna Benjamin Krusling <img width="1578" height="794" width_o="1578" height_o="794" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/de35d136c10255bace7e6a1cbb9ca523f077a80dcd2d0190203f3e0cfe19f360/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-11.17.36-AM.png" data-mid="118045348" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/de35d136c10255bace7e6a1cbb9ca523f077a80dcd2d0190203f3e0cfe19f360/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-11.17.36-AM.png" /><img width="1566" height="754" width_o="1566" height_o="754" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/d5dd5f1b1135aa1dc9fafc13a990eae2ba382d5fe23122b29994dc54c95c6d39/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-11.17.57-AM.png" data-mid="118045349" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/d5dd5f1b1135aa1dc9fafc13a990eae2ba382d5fe23122b29994dc54c95c6d39/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-11.17.57-AM.png" /><img width="1542" height="586" width_o="1542" height_o="586" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/ff4936d5f7996add4f21623ad4fe1900ef81dd822fa970590f26f0656283f291/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-11.18.04-AM.png" data-mid="118045351" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/ff4936d5f7996add4f21623ad4fe1900ef81dd822fa970590f26f0656283f291/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-11.18.04-AM.png" /> https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-2-It-s-a-groove-Katerina-Pansera-has-when-she-makes Tue, 22 Jun 2021 20:10:07 +0000 I Need Music: A Coda https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-2-It-s-a-groove-Katerina-Pansera-has-when-she-makes Section 2: [It's a groove Katerina Pansera has when she makes] [It's a groove Katerina Pansera has when she makes] Acknowledgements Marcela Torres Katerina Pansera Carl Elsaesser Marcela Torres It began that way, There was a manifest destiny mentality A consumptive funneling of power Then mechanics The stream reversed, rather than sucking it blew Known information became weaponized - self inflicting Dematerializing, seeming seemingness Non-form yields potential, yet harder to wield. Like sewing plastic or ripstop, it slips and crinkles out of the needles way My intended writing took a turn and ended up showing my Leo I guess, yes to sum Katerina Pansera Artist CV (via McBride Contemporain) https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-3-I-talk-a-lot-about-empathic-capability-in-a-class-I-m Tue, 22 Jun 2021 20:10:08 +0000 I Need Music: A Coda https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-3-I-talk-a-lot-about-empathic-capability-in-a-class-I-m Section 3: [I talk a lot about empathic capability in a class I’m teaching] [I talk a lot about empathic capability in a class I’m teaching] Acknowledgements Art As Experience, John Dewey Students in my class at Sarah Lawrence, In My Honest Opinion: Documentary, Testimony, and Identity Poetics Salima Magazine My immediate family Blackspace: On the Poetics of an Afrofuture, Anaïs Duplan David Loughridge Buddhist literature Adyashanti Marcela Torres Esther Perel How did chaos become a binary? It feels very this or that. Like if we stay very still maybe it’ll stop spinning into that. That, unknown unbelievable depth of chaos. A spinning spinning spinning of passing days is already chaos. I do think it could get worse and I honestly don't know if I could make it through more of this, our present chaos or that unknown chaos. The spectrum of chaos is a scary prompt to consider. When you don't know what could happen the possibilities are endless and anxiety inducing. Causing us to continue choosing the chaotic known. Similar to the sitcom troupe, when a character buys new goldfish to replace one that died rather than divulging the cycle of life to a youth or to a friend. More goldfish, rather than discomfort, pain or any other plot line. They are always found out and forgiven, becoming a parable of honesty and friendship. This plot line would be the perfect place for chaos. For something insane to occur, beyond mass entertainment value and character development. For the dead fish to return in the body of the main character’s lover who's also the writer who’s a known magician who lives in the basement of an oil rig who is an amatuer boxer who has an upcoming local match and during his weigh-in the two face each other and for that split second they're looking at each other in the face with determination to fight but then they kiss and then its a porn video you’re watching before work that you must watch to get yourself to go to work and then maybe something post-apocalyptic. There is no avoidance of chaos. There is only an avoidance of maneuvering the chaos, it could be a generative force. Not in a weaponized way, but in a change of situation. The spectrum of chaos has many planes, directions and time travel. Marcela Torres https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-4-Jerry-Paper-did-his-performance-in-a-small-dingy-room Fri, 03 Sep 2021 21:59:11 +0000 I Need Music: A Coda https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-4-Jerry-Paper-did-his-performance-in-a-small-dingy-room Section 4: [Jerry Paper did his performance in a small, dingy room] [Jerry Paper did his performance in a small, dingy room] Acknowledgements Jerry Paper https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-5-I-believe-in-Bambi-a-film-about-a-deer-I-ve-never-seen Fri, 03 Sep 2021 22:00:30 +0000 I Need Music: A Coda https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-5-I-believe-in-Bambi-a-film-about-a-deer-I-ve-never-seen Section 5: [I believe in Bambi, a film about a deer I’ve never seen.] [I believe in Bambi, a film about a deer I’ve never seen.] Acknowledgements Bambi Hongzhe Liang Recess https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-6-Perhaps-for-this-reason-Jerry-wore-briefs-underneath-his Fri, 03 Sep 2021 22:05:00 +0000 I Need Music: A Coda https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-6-Perhaps-for-this-reason-Jerry-wore-briefs-underneath-his Section 6: [Perhaps for this reason, Jerry wore briefs underneath his robe.][Perhaps for this reason, Jerry wore briefs underneath his robe.] Acknowledgements Jerry paper video game The Hudson Project Festival Bassnectar Josh Potter New Approaches to the Study of Marine Mammals https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-7-I-was-about-to-say-why-would-one-sit-in-a-courtroom Fri, 03 Sep 2021 22:05:52 +0000 I Need Music: A Coda https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-7-I-was-about-to-say-why-would-one-sit-in-a-courtroom Section 7: [I was about to say, why would one sit in a courtroom] [I was about to say, why would one sit in a courtroom] Acknowledgements Shaun Leonardo: The Breath of Empty Space <img width="1246" height="802" width_o="1246" height_o="802" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/0be1f2754078ddf562a323ef9e063863314d7a5d000fb347f7dde90e1394f775/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-12.20.03-PM.png" data-mid="118047006" border="0" data-scale="90" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/0be1f2754078ddf562a323ef9e063863314d7a5d000fb347f7dde90e1394f775/Screen-Shot-2021-09-03-at-12.20.03-PM.png" />Central Park 5 (detail) - charcoal on paper, each 8 ½ x 11 in., 2017 https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-8-Opening-a-portal-by-a-groove-of-transcendence-to-a-vision Fri, 03 Sep 2021 22:10:10 +0000 I Need Music: A Coda https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-8-Opening-a-portal-by-a-groove-of-transcendence-to-a-vision Section 8: [Opening a portal, by a groove of transcendence, to a vision] Opening a portal, by a groove of transcendence, to a vision Acknowledgements Finnegan’s Wake Marshall Allen John Gilmore Ronnie Boykins Ricky Murray Sun Ra Walter Strickland Billy Mitchell Sun Ra and the Arkestra Nick Cave’s Soundsuits ILC Dover Robert Mugge, A Joyful Noise https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-9-Terrifying-the-house-was-real-scary-n-dark Fri, 03 Sep 2021 22:11:02 +0000 I Need Music: A Coda https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-9-Terrifying-the-house-was-real-scary-n-dark Section 9: [Terrifying the house was real scary ‘n’ dark.] [Terrifying the house was real scary ‘n’ dark.] Acknowledgements Wayne Shorter Joe Zawinul Karneef Jlin No Fear of Pop https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-10-The-disorientation-was-thrilling Fri, 03 Sep 2021 22:11:36 +0000 I Need Music: A Coda https://ineedmusic.cargo.site/Section-10-The-disorientation-was-thrilling Section 10: [The disorientation was thrilling.] [The disorientation was thrilling.] Acknowledgements Craigslist, missed connections Callaloo